Bloglog:
08/26/2024
WELL.
TURNS OUT THAT FORMATTING WAS BUGGING ME... A LOT......
(Slight updates have occurred)
(Finally, my index page enters the era of the Box Model...)
08/24/2024
I still apparently can't be bothered to fix the absolutely horrific HTML formatting on this index page (hint... not a [div] block in sight...) but I am, despite all appearances otherwise, still very much around.
I was lucky enough to make it to a second year in a row of NYC's Flamecon, at which a number of people I primarily think of as being familiar little square images on various web hosts I frequent turned out to be tabling in the flesh-and-blood - this kind of realisation seems to have a bit of an impact on the urge to put my work out there. I may well be experiencing a wash of fuckor at the thought of being recognised in-the-flesh
01/20/2024
Despite everything, I'm still here... Terrible! I've managed to take an empowering thing from a work of art and make it sound melancholy!
Scraping your life together isn't quite as easy as one would hope, especially if you land yourself a job that runs long and irregular hours
The vast majority of art I've made over the past year has been craftwork that either A. are not at all impressive in photographs (even if their pattern/manufacture is innovative in some way) or B. has had its component parts exploded across the rooms in my house by my little brother actually-for-realzies graduating from college, which has been a major impediment to just damn finishing the things!
03/04/2023
Things procede apace!
For the moment, I've been focusing on getting my life scraped together properly. The new job mentioned below is going fairly well. At some point, I will probably publish an essay or two topical to what I do, because it's thematically fitting with other work I've made. (Hmm... almost as if.... art reflects things about the creators....)
There Exists a compendium of Shitty^tm poetry I may scrape into zine(s) at some point - I think there would be a lot of merit to publically discussing the systemic stupidity that meant /(still means) I couldn't access timely, effective transition care without claiming to be nonbinary... when I am, you see, NOT.
(It covers a nice wide soup of things like "Bizarre aspects of gatekeeping", "Cis people STILL don't Get what a trans person is", "did you know? Having a Women's^TM bathroom is mandatory" and! More!)
07/24/2022
Well that was a shitty job at a crazy company!
I was stuck not so much burning the candle at both ends, but burning the candle at ends I didn't even realize it had... which, in addition to keeping me from creative pursuits, also meant I literally was not able to go to the docs for the one (1) appointment that would have gotten me on HRT. FUN TIMES!
My new job is very Fun and Interesting. The company actually has an HR department and requires employees to demonstrate they can do tasks compitently before assigning them, for one...
Here's to a hopefully-better time.
10/13/2021
For the past several months, Bennie has been busy working on... a Real Job! Also, buying a car!!!
Fantastically, the car that happened to be The Correct Price (which was: 'cheap') was also a brilliant beetle-blue. Here's to the aesthetic!
The initial plan had been to have the in-progress Halloween Zine/'Monsterous May' prepped for, well, Halloween. Unfortunately, this had to take a back seat to things like: medicating rampantly untreated ADHD, purchasing Other People's Groceries, scheduling doctor's appointments, and writing truely inordinate quantities of Destiny 2 fanfiction - you know, the usual.
Gender Weather over here in the tri-state area has been: mediocre.
Having recently been struck through the heart by the realization I don't own any rennaisance faire (for the unfamiliar: these are a very large and well-populated social LARP game, not simply a place to go get drunk and stare at jousting) garb of an appropriate gendering, I have been engaged more in Craft than in Art lately. Results, should they please any eyeballs at all, will eventually appear here. It turns out I'm actually not too shabby at embroidery.
Notes from the first days of this page: I remembered I own an old, old edition of Adobe Dreamweaver and cracked it open. This has not particularly enlightened me as to why this page INSISTS on being black on white!
edit, five minutes later: it's because I trusted the tutorial and this file had no header. NICE! ...now all my pics are clashing...
Making a header graphic got eaten by , so I guess I'll just embed the nicest bit of art I've got hosted elsewhere... oh wait, I made this site because I trust other hosts as far as I can throw them, and my arms are SHRIMPY.
4/27/2021 end state: main page and external self-directory working! Some nice pngs for you to look at!
4/29 - for reasons beyond mortal comprehension, the style doc started working morning of the 28th. Huh. Anyway, I have a project picking up on the 1st that needs a temporary host, so I guess I'm getting this website kicked into shape for that